midlife crisis?

So, I'm turning 30 in a few months, and aging has been on my mind a lot lately. Actually, the day I turned 29 it really hit me that I'm getting older. A part of me seriously believes I'm still the same person that I was when I was 18. Yet another more logical part (the part that sees gray hairs coming in, crows feet at my eyes, wrinkles on my forhead, and "age spots" on my body) knows that I am definitely not 18. Besides the above mentioned things I've noticed on my aging body I have really been struck by the fact that I can no longer comfortably wear things in the Juniors section.

Not only has my body changed (especially after having a baby), but the clothing itself is just too "young" looking. I hear Stacy and Clinton from TLC's What Not To Wear saying, "Would a 30 yr old wear that? You're not 15, take off the shirt w/ small hearts and butterflies and try somethin more sophisticated." I also hear them saying, "That outfit needs more 'structure' to hold you in place a little more."

My plan for my 30th b-day is this: 30 by 30. I will reveal later what that plan is. Don't want to jinx it before it begins, but starting next week, I plan to make a few changes so that the plan will succeed. I DO NOT want to wake up on my birthday, look in the mirror and be sad. I DO NOT want to think that my image and self esteem are all down hill from here. I want to do things that will encourage me and make me believe the best in my life is yet to come!

So is this a midlife crisis? Today I've only mentioned the more visible aspects of aging. Tomorrow I may write more on the mental and spiritual things I've been wrestling with in this aging crisis of mine.

Until then, think young, but dress appropriately.:)

G.